It’s pretty weird when you’re too tired and too depressed to hate yourself
she lost something that never even existed
|Anonymous: You are so beautiful, you do not need to lose weight <3|
That’s really nice lovely anon, but I see it differently
Maybe, just maybe I’ll have internet at the end of the week or at the beginning of next week
I weighed myself this morning. It was kinda depressing. Fifty-fucking-nine kilo T____T So yeah I guess it’s a good thing to have something today what I call a liquid day (only tea, water, diet coke and a fatfree chai latte)
I think I should stop eating. Not even counting the stuff I’m eating, just cutting the whole food off, because I’m so fat it would take years to go down with my weight, even if I do some exercises.
I feel weird at the moment. On the one hand I’m happy because I sit with my sister in starbucks and we’re doing silly pics, but on the other hand there’s this urge of running around to lose weight, this deep selfhate and a grey sadness…